Your Misery And Hate Will Kill Us All

You have a perfect life... everybody of you!!!
Your mom loves you. Your dad loves you. Your brothers and sisters are like friends!
ENJOY IT! ENJOY IT!
I think you don't want to live my life!

My parents and sisters loves me? NO! They hate me... THEY HATE ME!
They ignore me...
They never think about me...
They want that I... that I die!

Do you hear me! My life sux! I want to die... Than nobody have to care about my feelings or meanings!
Than my parents are happy...

Dear diary
Mood: happy! Why? Well...I have just bought new things again!-P And I have a earring! Am I a pirate now?
Okay, today was a great day. we wrote a very easy test in history/geography. This was really easy... The rest of the school-time was funny. In one of the braks Mauk was confused. He saw my sister, Skisa and me and said our surnames:" De Bondt, Slowik, De Bondt...? De Bondt, Slowik, De Bondt...!?" After that we tickled him at his haunchs. Everytime he is screaming like a little girl. That is fun!!!
After school I met Skisa and we went to the city. There I made me an earring. And my mum dindn't allowed it, but I'm 16 and I can make me earrings when I want! It hurted so much... But now I don't need to cut myself, because I had my dose of hurt! ^^ Afterwards we went to three little shops. In the frist I bought gloves with skulls on them. I love them... And a little bracelet, but it is too small for my arms, 'cause it is for kids... In the second shop I bought nothing. Than in the third shop I bought tattoo- pens. Perhaps I  make me a little star on my arm with them tomorrow...
So this was my day, and f**king shit... I was outside! The sun burned me down! Remember: I'm a little vampire.
So bye, bye

Dear diary,
today was much fun in school! My friends make every day to a special day! Thank you for that,  assholes... ^^ Now I want to kick some ass! XD
At 2 pm my mum and I picked my little sister up and went to a little shop called "Family". I bought there two pantyhoses. Both are black, 'cause I love black. Even my mum said: "No! NO!
I'll not buy you those pantyhoses!" So I had to buy them myself... It cost with two little scrunchies 7,45 € (with €uro we pay here!!!)! Much money, but this was worthwhile. Later I bought a "little" lanyard for my hair... Look:
All these things I bought... XD
And now I'm sitting here and making a journal...
bye,bye

Dear Diary,
I want to write about yesterday!
...
Okay, that was my day. Sunday...
So I write about today!
...
That was my day. No, no!
School was funny today. We laughed and laughed... In the 7th lesson I had chess-club, but in the 6th lesson my class hadn't any tuition! So I made my math homework. Even My best friend Skisa had in the 7th and 8th lesson how to drive a motor-assisted bicycle and she also had a free lesson before... I was so silly! We could stay together in this free lesson, but I was too silly to understand!-P
Now I'm sitting home and I don't know what to do... Help me!!!
Mood (a)pathetic!!!

Today is one of the most loneliest days of my life. Nobody is here... nobody!
I'm so alone, so I found another good friend: My Diary!
I have it on buzznet, so nobody of my family (except Florian...) can read it...
so let me think what I've done today:
First of all i sleept to 12 pm! It was fantastic to sleep 12 hours, because the days before I only sleept for 5 or 6 hours. And this wasn't so good for my face... ^^ You can still find dark circles around my wonderful eyes. They look like deep, dark holes... I'm looking so dead!
So I sleept very well. Than my mother waked me up, because I have to carry out adverts... 400 every saturday or sunday. Sometimes I have to carry out 800! Than I have two different adverts.
I woke up and I was ready at three pm. While I carried out, I heard Billy Talent, Panic! At the Disco and Fall out Boy for 3 hours. This is as loneliness as to be dead.
And now I'm home and I cannot be on a concert from M2M (Misson to Mars; one of the best bands from Hamm [I live in Hamm!])! They are really great and I cannot be there... :-(
This was my day, one of the loneliest eva...